Friday, July 24, 2009


Tomorrow I am 9 weeks pregnant and I am getting bigger! My waist was 30" pre-baby, and it is now 2.5" larger. Today was the first day that my pants were too uncomfortable to button. I've been wearing a lot of dresses, but I might have to figure out an interim-maternity solution for work clothes soon. I can either buy a few more loose dresses, buy larger clothing, or buy a belly band to wear my pants unbuttoned. Oh, the choices!

I'm looking forward to actually showing, rather than just getting fat. But I suppose I have a few more weeks left where it will get worse before it gets "better".

The good news is that the baby is also growing too. We had our first ultrasound on 7/9 and got to see the heartbeat. I was too worried to really look at it myself, but J and the doctor looked intently so I trust them that it was there. Although the official printer wasn't working, J was able to take a first picture of our baby with his blackberry.

J is already very attached to this little one. I'm still trying not to be too attached but just enjoy that I am able to stay pregnant for this long. I will let myself get attached and get (even) more excited when we get to our next ultrasound at 10w2d.

The baby seems to want me to know that it is there, though. I've had a few bad days of nausea and even threw up 3 times in the last 8 days. While feeling sick isn't wonderful (obviously) it does help me feel more confident that we're both still okay so far. Otherwise, I feel like I use up all my energy just trying to eat, sleep, and work. I can't wait until I have more energy to actually do things that I'd like to do before the baby - like sewing classes, working through my knitting to-do list, and reading more books.


Saturday, July 04, 2009

Weekly Recipe: Daily Granola

I found this recipe at When I was younger, my grandfather used to make wonderful homemade granola and I've always wanted to make my own. While this wasn't as good as my grandpa's, it seems like a pretty good starting point. I like the ingredients, but the end result was a little too chewy and sweet for my taste. Next time I'll cut down on some of the sweeteners and let it bake a little longer (I did about 40 minutes this time).

Daily Granola (Modified from who modified it from Nigella's Feast

Dry ingredients:
5 cups rolled oats
1 1/2 cups raw almonds
1 1/2 cups pecan halves
1 cup hulled raw sunflower seeds
1 cup dried coconut
¾ cup sesame seeds
¾ cup light brown sugar
2 tsp. ground cinnamon
1 tsp. ground ginger
1 tsp. salt

Wet ingredients:
¾ cup unsweetened apple sauce
1/3 cup brown rice syrup
¼ cup honey
2 Tbsp. vegetable oil

Set racks in the upper and lower thirds of the oven. Preheat the oven to 300°F. In a large bowl, combine all of the dry ingredients. In a small bowl, combine all of the wet ingredients. Pour the wet ingredients over the dry ones, and stir well.

Spread the mixture evenly on two rimmed baking sheets. Bake for 35 to 40 minutes, or until evenly golden brown. Set a timer to go off every ten minutes while the granola bakes, so you can rotate the pans and give the granola a good stir. Remove the pans from the oven, stir well – this will keep it from cooling into a hard, solid sheet – and set aside to cool. The finished granola may still feel slightly soft when it comes out of the oven, but it will crisp as it cools.

Scoop cooled granola into to a large zipper-lock plastic bag or other airtight container. Store in the refrigerator indefinitely.


Friday, July 03, 2009

One Week Wait

Today I am six weeks (5 weeks and 6 days) pregnant. Only 6 days until my first OB appointment - and it seems like I'm still pregnant! My first appointment is on July 9th, and I'm really really hoping that we get to see a heartbeat at that appointment. If we see a heartbeat, we will tell J's family during our birthday weekend in Philly.

I haven't told my family yet, but I was thinking of telling them today. Inexplicably, I'm more afraid of saying it outloud to too many people than too many people knowing. Even when I do share the news I'm trying to approach it as a positive pregnancy test and nothing more. I know that I would call my mom if I had bad news at my first appointment, so it would be best for her to know in advance when it is coming.

I have told a total of 4 people so far - for various reasons. The first person I told was my best friend since she was in town the day after I got my first positive test. The second person I told was a girl I met at Korean class. I only told her because she doesn't have any connections to anyone else I know - sort of like sharing the news with a stranger - and only because she told me that she was 11 weeks pregnant. The good news is that if everything works out well, we may have another half - Korean family in the area with a baby at almost exactly the same age. I also told my knitting group. Since knitting group has essentially evolved into an infertility support group, we always discuss what cycle day we are on when we are planning on going to fertility clinics, etc, so it was hard NOT to tell them.

Every person I've shared the news with knows about my losses. 2 of them have gone through miscarriages themselves before and can very much relate to not wanting to share the news widely. I know there is nothing I can do now except hope for the best.


Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Weekly Recipe: Lemon Poppyseed Cake

I've decided to start a new series on this blog where I post a recipe once a week. This won't be any glamorous food blog entry, just a way to record one of my favorite recipes. The series may go through themes - maybe I'll even start posting pictures?! Don't get your hopes up, though.

The first recipe is my mother's Lemon Poppyseed Cake. It is delicious, moist, lemon-y (of course!) and incredibly simple to make.

1 Box Reg. Yellow Cake Mix
1 Small Instant Pudding Mix (lemon)
3/4 c Oil
3/4 c. Water
3/4 c. Lemon Juice (I only had a 1/2 c, but it was still good)
1/4 c Poppyseeds
6 eggs

Prehead oven to 375 degrees. Mix all ingredients. Grease and flour a bundt pan or 2 loaf pans. Bake for 35-45 minutes.


So Far, So Good

I am 5 weeks (4 weeks and 4 days) pregnant. After one year and two early losses, it looks like I might finally be on my way to a baby. With my past experience, I'm worried that positive tests may turn negative and I have about 7 positive pregnancy tests to prove it!

The good news is that the tests are getting darker so it looks like this little one might stick around a bit longer. My first appointment is on 7/9 and I hope that we'll be able to see a heartbeat at that appointment.

Every day I stay pregnant feels like a great accomplishment at this point, but I also feel detached from my pregnancy. Symptoms (which mostly include absolute exhaustion at this point) make me happy, but it feels more like a happy dream than reality so far.

Unlike the last time, I didn't share the news with J in any cute way. I took a Dollar Store test on 6/18 that looked negative at first, but the dye movement me second guess it before throwing it away and I tested with one of the expensive tests. The tests seemed to get a bit darker with time ("darker" being relative as I had to take the test apart and hold it against the light to see anything at all), but I thought I was just seeing lines I wanted to be there. J was asleep, so I woke him up and asked him to see if he could see anything on the test. Shockingly, he thought the test was convincingly positive!!! After the test sat for about 30 minutes, the line on the expensive test actually was pretty convincing.

As of today, I have 4 positive Dollar Store tests, 2 positive FRER tests, and 1 positive digital test in my collection. Luckily for me, I only have another 4 pregnancy tests in my collection which should be enough to get me through the 2 week wait (why is waiting always in 2 week increments?) to my ultrasound.

Although we are still very much in "wait and see" mode, if all goes well we may have a baby around February 27, 2010!

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